30 july 2024

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one year ago this month i was passionate and driven and inspired to be cool. i wanted to be interesting. and fantastic. and i was determined to be that way. nothing changed; i just got lazy. my self esteemed dropped. no excuse-- im still just as interesting as i was last summer. just a girl who lost self esteem and motivation to exceed expectations.

maybe im fake. or two faced or whatever. stereotypical gemini. maybe i portray a facade to the people i see daily. even the people i'm close with. maybe i lost sense of self. maybe i just neeed to eat a vegetable. but who knows for real?!?

this is the first time coding from scratch since february i believe. when i made a page for my boyfriend. we are still together. it would be dramatically incorrect to say that i feel a profound emptiness. not because of him, but in general. like my laughs are fake and i smile when im not happy. maybe i'll never escape being that damn mirror

blessing or curse? no growth without a reflection amiright

this is my journal entry for the night. thoughts n shit... thanks for reading

-kloe